I grew up in the small town of Lucedale, Mississippi. Like so many small-town Southern families, we were close-knit and rarely did people in our family move away. I went to college at the University of Southern Mississippi, an hour from home – far enough for privacy and personal growth, but close enough to go home anytime I wanted or needed to. Hattiesburg became my true home as I got older. I loved it and still do.
I moved around several times during my adulthood – Hughesville, MD; Clermont, FL; back to Lucedale; Gulfport, MS; Arlington, TX; and now, Fort Worth. The best of times were when I lived in Gulfport – far enough away from my nosy small town (in a dry county), but close enough to attend family functions and to see my parents on all holidays and birthdays.
Being in the DFW area has its advantages:
- Homeschool freedom
- Great weather
- Diversity in the cities
- Plenty of things to do
- Great restaurants, shopping, and nightlife
- A friend group I always wanted
- Stuart has a great job here.
- Enough distance from my family to raise my children my way without meddling
There are definitely disadvantages:
- The dry air sucks for my skin.
- I have severe allergies here.
- I don’t have family holidays.
- Not near the beach
- My old friends, part of my soul, are too far away.
- I miss MY shopping centers and MY bar.
- Have you ever driven in the DFW?!
- My hairstylist is in Mississippi
- My family is too far away to be a real support system.
- My nephew is coming soon, in MS, and I want my kids to grow up near him.
That last one, though. Several things happened over the weekend while I was back home visiting -a great hair appointment, girl time with one of my oldest friends, troublemaking with my Bestie, meeting new friends- that made me realize how much I need to be home. Above all else, I need to see my nephew born, I need long day visits with my brother, sister-in-law, and nephew. I need to see my parents and extended family far more than I have the last few years.
It’s a hard pill to swallow to realize you have made a life-altering decision that you’re no longer happy with. I moved to Texas to continue my relationship with Stuart because he can’t do his job in Mississippi. The decision to put my relationship with him above a lot of other things in my life is now nagging the hell out of me.
This doesn’t mean I’m packing up and shipping out – it just means that I am less certain of what the future holds.